| Tuesday, October 4th, 2005 |
| 10:52 am |
ATTENTION
NEW JOURNAL NAME! You want the name ask me for it or ill jstu add you<3 |
| Monday, October 3rd, 2005 |
| 1:19 pm |
where the fuck is the van
so kelley just left me</3 it was an amazing weekend. we got a lot of alone time and i got the chance to spoil the shit out of her. we got a stupid text message that kind of ruined the vibe from a fuck up person that ruined my life. i really cant wait till she moves away from this city to. she is a cunt and she is a piece of shit. im sorry i dont know how she got my number and im really upset that she did. this morning was the hardest thing ive had to do in months and that was to let kelley leave again. it sucks because when she is here time flies by soo fast and when she leaves i feel so fucking lonely she is the most amazing thing that has ever happened to me and i cant wait for her to come back and i cant wait for this summer becase we are going to live together. im starting to like reno more and more as each day goes by. it sucks because i dont have the love i do when i was down there. i miss everyone sooo fucking much. but ill be home soon. |
| Friday, September 30th, 2005 |
| 10:03 am |
FUCK IM HYPED!!!
12 FUCKING HOURS IM SOOO HYPED!! MY SUGAR TITS WILL BE IN TOWN IN 12 HOURS Current Mood:  crazy |
| Wednesday, September 28th, 2005 |
| 5:48 pm |
just got my phone and let me tell you it is amazing!! i got the new itunes phone from cingular if you want my number toooo BAD! or jsut ask <3 friday night at 10:15 or so my lover will be here and god damn i cant wait<3 Current Mood:  happyCurrent Music: ramallah kill a celebraty |
| Sunday, September 25th, 2005 |
| 3:50 pm |
where the fuck is the van?
so lately since ive gotten back from vegas i have noticed how extremely unhappy i am. i miss all my friends down in vegas i mean dont get me wrong i love living with my mom she is the most amazing person. and i have the kids i hang out iwth up here they are good dudes but i jsut dont have the comfort like i do with everyone else. ive finally come to terms who is truly my friend and who is a two faced piece of shit im not going to name any of them at all it will jsut create drama but jsut know if i dont talk to you when i get back you will understand why. i am really thankful that aaron and i had a huge talk the other night. he really made me realize a lot of things and i felt that he had helped me so much... i come back in october to hang out and for the halloween show. ill be back nov 18th for a show and in december. so every month im going to make it down. i miss everyone soo much i get to see kelley in less than a week and you have no idea how excited i am for that she is having some bad days up there in santa clara but hey she will get to be with me you cant get much better then that... i am taking her shopping and im taking her out on the small town haha.. i love her to death<333 also erika and i had an amazing talk last night we caught up on the old times talked about high school and some of the stupid things we used to do. i miss my brothers terribly they were my support system while i was there. but ill be home soon and its going to be another giant party |
| Saturday, September 24th, 2005 |
| 8:29 am |
im sorry im sooo sorry i fell asleep and i didnt sleep right becuase i didnt talk to you my head wasnt right i love you<3 ill make it up to you if i have to<3 dont be mad at me<3 Current Mood:  sadCurrent Music: explosions in the sky - first breathe after coma |
| Thursday, September 22nd, 2005 |
| 11:34 pm |
i miss you<33 i cant wait till we are together again another week this time next week we will be partying |
| Tuesday, September 20th, 2005 |
| 2:35 pm |
GET IN HEREEEEEE MAAAANNNNN!!!
my trip was absolutly amazing... im glad i got to see everyone and im glad i had the talk of my life with larry and aaron. last night as i was getting ready to leave i get a phone call from larry and i just started balling my fucking eyes out becuase i didnt want to leave..the only good thing up here is the fact that im with my mom and im right next to kelley<3 other than that i have nothing and im completly lonely i play fable all fucking night for godsakes hahaha.. well i love everyone and all i have to say to sum up my whole fucking trip is G G G G G G G G G GETTTT IN HERE MANN!!!! |
| Monday, September 19th, 2005 |
| 2:34 pm |
this trip has been amazing i got to see a lot of people so far and tonight at the show it should be even more faces. i fell asleep at jenns house last night but all i could think about was kelley and how i feel completly shitty for not being out here for her. i should have fought harder to get down here to say goodbye to her. but i love you and im going to try soo hard to get there this weekend so i know you are alright i know the times are tough but you are a tough girl. you will mkae it through you just have to keep your head up and i know you are lonely but please dont ever look away. im sooo hungry and me and eric are going to tear shit apart tonight. we wrote a song together last night and did two mic song for one of our new songs. i have missed you so much man. i cant wait for tonight just more mayhem to insue. Current Mood: hungryCurrent Music: verse rebuild |
| Saturday, September 17th, 2005 |
| 11:20 am |
WHOS READY TO FUCKING PARTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY YY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BECAUSE I AM AND IM SOO READY TO SEE EVERYONE TONIGHT IM SOOOO STOKED!!!!!! HANGXOUT TEAM IS READY TO START |
| Thursday, September 15th, 2005 |
| 8:25 am |
kelley just called me to tell me that she was on her way i want to thank anyone who hung out with her last night. it meant a lot to her and me. im glad she is closer to me so that i can take care of her. ill be home in less than 3 days i love you guys kelley its going to be ok im here for you now and you arent far away you are just a phone call and a plane ride home. i love you |
| Wednesday, September 14th, 2005 |
| 1:13 am |
sometimes i ruin a good night because im an idiot im sorry and i didnt mean to ruin a good night and today is supposed to be a good one for you im sorrry im an asshole i guess im not to good to you huh? on a brighter side i love you josh its your bday so live it up niggggga |
| Tuesday, September 13th, 2005 |
| 10:24 am |
WHOS HYPED BESIDES ME!!! 4 days til i get back.. there are some ups and downs about the whole thing though i wont get to see the one person i need to see....</3
but i do get to see everyone and catch up on old times but ill be there and ready to party all day long booya!
make sure everyone checks out bloody sunday every man for himself wintch mob and relentless monday night at the rock n java every one better bring their dancing shoes to get ready to shake their asses
im stoked that i will get to spend the night at dannys house one night so me and him can catch up on old times.
im also stoked that lars large nose johnson brown wintch will be there to pick me up from the airport and then i get to hang out with my favorite person in the world AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAROOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOONNNNNNN!!! ill be there soon... Current Mood: workingCurrent Music: OLDIES ON THE BOOMBOX BOOOOYYYY |
| Monday, September 12th, 2005 |
| 11:47 am |
sometimes i wish i didnt exist sometimes i wish i wasnt sick and i wish i had my better half all the time up here in KENO..... <3 |
| Sunday, September 11th, 2005 |
| 10:10 am |
helpless times 2
i just wish i could take your pain away.... i want to be there for you..... i miss you and we will be together soon.... just dont give up yet |
| Thursday, September 8th, 2005 |
| 8:36 am |
chingo bling king of tamalless boooyyyyyyy
i love chingo bling it gets me through my days there is nothing else in this world i would rather have then you..... i just dont think you realize how hard i have tried to make sure you are ok and there are no more tears and there are no more pains coming from your chest.. so you dont have to lie in bed at night and wonder why the only thing i can possibly do is give you all my heart my attention and my love. i hope this is good enough beucase if its not then whats the point. i know you are there and i am here but one day one day we will be living in a house together watching ourselves grow grey. thats all i want is to be with you. i dont care about what they say becuase i know where i stand and thats right next to you. the depression is just a short breath away from happiness. happiness is the key to life so they say.. there is nothing else i need but you i would die just to see you smile i would take all the pain you have inside and swollow it in a heartbeat if i knew that would make you realize i love you. im going off course and things are coming out randomly and not in a very good text but all the things i wish i could say to you in person have to be written through this.. or spoken through the phone with out the touch or scent or the reaction on your face. it will be ok in the end it will be ok in the end i wont let it happen again because ive realized that you are all i need and all i will ever need. <3 Current Mood: contentCurrent Music: chingo bling- me 4 president |
| Wednesday, September 7th, 2005 |
| 8:26 am |
sometimes you have to look life in the face and say when in roomeee... but i hate school but i love my job end report oh and i love you k. BELLEY(haha) it will be ok.. i promise you if anyone wants to call me today you should that would be rather awesome.. |
| Tuesday, September 6th, 2005 |
| 3:12 pm |
post script
sometimes i hate work becuase it is sooo fucking slow and sometimes i love work because it goes by soo fast that i dont even notice that i am here... that also makes it a lot easier to get through the days because then it is quicker that i get to talk to kelley<3 me and her are doing fine we have made many improvements within us. and im glad and to all those people that told her she couldnt do it and i couldnt change and i wouldnt change well hey guess what you are a piece of shit because nothing can break us now not even you... and to those who wish we werent together can eat my ass... i love her so fucking deal with it. kelley will be 5 hours closer to me in 12 days or so ill be back to vegas really soon. and i cant wait becuase me and larry have some SERIOUS hangout team time. be home soon |
| Monday, September 5th, 2005 |
| 11:08 am |
KMc<33
today will be better for us i swear i love you butthead<33 Current Mood: gratefulCurrent Music: wu-tang clan- clan in da front-36 chambers |
| Thursday, September 1st, 2005 |
| 11:29 am |
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